I had my first initial outbreak about 2 weeks ago, the day after I finished my antiviral medication (literally 3 days ago) I got a recurring breakout due to stress. I am 21 years old and still in university. I am terrified because the one time I decided that I wanted to just have fun and fool around with a couple of guys...and bam, karma bites me back in the ass. I had a break down yesterday because my doctor said my symptoms were so acute and mild that I would not potentially have a break out for a while... Oh boy was he wrong. I know that doctors can't predict the future but I really needed that reassurance. Luckily, he gave me an extra prescrition of Valtrex and that has helped me. I just feel so sad and alone, I dont know who to talk to or what or to do, I am suppoed to go on holiday with my groups of friends next week and I am so scared that im going to have a break out during the trip because I know I'll be drinking a lot. I dont want to have another outbreak while im there, should I do surpressive therapy if had an OB striaght after my first?
I am so lost about H, I don't know why people dont talk about it more because its so common. The thought of sex scares me so much now and I hate this about myself. What if I never find a guy who would accept me? How do I tell someone that I have H? What if they look at me like im dirty?
I really just need some advice and some kind words, please help me.