Just returned from a trip with my kids. I see that there has been a continuation of the discussion I started on the Disclosure thread. I appreciate the discussion and hope to return to it soon. But, right now, I could really use some support. I am mad as hell. You know all the common triggers? Like sunlight, peanuts, chocolate, coffee, masturbation, booze, and sex? (Yeahhhhh.......the good things in life......)
Well, of all of the above, the ones I hold dearest are masturbation and sex. In fact, if masturbation were an Olympic sport, I would surely qualify for a medal........ ;) Sadly, I am one of those folks who experiences frequent outbreaks, and even more sadly (in my opinion,) they are easily triggered by masturbation. I used to masturbate 10 times as much (and I wish I were exaggerating). I enjoy toys as well as manual stimulation. I used to have a sex toy biz and I work PT for sex ed events at a local sex toy store here in Milwaukee called The Tool Shed. Vibes are a few a of my favorite things. Unfortunately, I notice that the more intense my orgasms are (and vibes make me come harder than manual stim,) the more freakish and painful the "aftershocks." I have never read a thing about this phenomenon I experience with astounding regularity, but it feels like the nerves in my vulva are having spasmodic convulsions that do NOT feel at all like the healthy release of orgasm. I used to have multiple orgasms in a row each solo session. Now I get nervous to "come again." The nerves after coming feel like erratic and painful shocks. It's really hard to describe in words. All I can say, with great sadness and fury in my heart, is that this experience practically RUINS the pleasant and cozy experience of orgasm moments after the rhythmic contractions end. It's depressing as hell.
I noticed that vibrators exacerbate this phenomenon, so I have recently taken to masturbating like I did in grade school...fully clothed and on my belly. But today, I was outrageously horny and since my man resides on a tiny island in the sea, it was time to get down and dirty with myself. I had an hour long solo session followed by a TREMENDOUS orgasm, shortly followed by 5 lonnnnng minutes of nerve spasms that required me to grab an icepack just to numb the sensation. Now, I'm having prodrome and thinking homicidal thoughts about the guy who bestowed me with the gift. (Remember kids, you can "think" whatever you wish.........)
Anyway, none of this is doing me any good. This is not a rare occurrence for me. This is something that has happened after most orgasms. And my orgasms aren't the same, either. First and foremost, and I apologize if the gory deets are off-putting for some....I used to enjoy penetrative and clitoral stimulation every time I masturbated. I realized that penetration (even well lubricated,) seemed a culprit for prodrome, so I started masturbating mostly externally. SUPER BIG BUMMER. Secondly, I was one of those gals who could ejaculate and have these beautiful, soul shaking, emotional, heady G-spot orgasms. They were truly Amazzzzzzing. Guess what...Haven't had one in over 4 years. The pressure and repetition required for that kind of big-O is more than my body can take without experiencing discomfort.
So...woe is me. Fa realz.
I am on daily suppressants, recently gave up drinking and coffee, and started exercising regularly. I think stress is a major factor in all of this and diet may be key. Am currently reading "Crazy, Sexy Diet" by Kris Carr who was diagnosed with a rare and incurable form of cancer 10 years ago. She has an amazing attitude and swears by an alkaline diet to deter any form of chronic disease. So my next step (and it's a BIG one) is a 80/20 raw foods diet with supplements of wheat grass juice. Hey, desperate times call for desperate measures. I want my "girl" back, yo. If you have any ideas for me, or have experience or heard of this phenomenon I am calling "aftershocks," I encourage you to chime in. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, but if you have been cursed with this sensation and resulting prodrome or outbreaks, I would love to hear from you. Perhaps we can commiserate. Have a "pity the poor pussy party." Ugh. I don't know. I am so beyond bummed..........