A vent as well as success... sorry its so long
Its the long weekend, sunday night a girlfriend and i decided to go to a club, our mission : to get white girl wasted!
And we succeeded! I felt amazing, the alcohol took hold of my fear and i didnt think about H the entire evening!
Next thing i know this super cute guy starts dancing with me.. (me? ... why not me!) So the drunken adventure began..
he and his friend suggested to my friend and i to join them at their campsite, ditch the club, and be renecks again, roast some dogs over a fire.
The first thing i blurted out.. "im not going to sleep with you tonight!"
The cute guy laughed and said "thats fine, we're having a bonfire, not an orgy.."
So the 4 of us left, giggling the entire time.
Next thing i know this guy and i r making out, we end up in his trailer.
i repeat myself, "we're not having sex..." he replies with.. "i know, cant i just kiss a beautiful woman?"
After an hour of kissing, he carreses me, my thighs, my stomach, my breasts..
then he asked "i know u dont want to have sex, may i ask why? Is it the one night stand u r worried about? Or am i just not attractive enough?"
I stoped his hand. I couldnt stand the thought of his guy thinking HE wasnt attractive..
"No no no, your sexy as hell! Its just... well... i may or may not have herpes symplex 2 and if i do, i dont want to pass it to u with a one night stand.."
He giggled... like actually giggled at me.
"Seriously babe, is that what you're worried about? Its fine! My dad's a dr, and im in school to become one myself! I know lots about."
Me : "oh!?... well. Did you know that i could still pass it to u even if we use a condom?"
Him : "ya.... whats yout point babe? I think youre beautiful, dont let what you may or may not have change your mind on sex, if you dont want to its fine, but im willing to take the risk!
We didnt end up having sex that night...
no instead i went home with my friend via taxi..
He asked me to join him and his friends last night, their last night in town , he kissed me hello,
We all had drinks again together...
and bam, we had sex.
I dont usually do one nighters, i mean i have in the past, but thru all this h buisiness i honestly want a relationship.. i miss it, the comfort of knowing ur man (or woman) is there for ya after a long day at work.
A part of me knows i only did it because he made me feel sexy, and didnt care about h.
another part of me feels kinda stupid because... it was a one time thing.
Either way, it happend, and i geuss i wanted to share this with everyone to show and prove it can happen, love after h, or just casual sex...
I know i sound a lil trashy, i feel a lil trashy to be honest, but i mean ... hey if i can do a one night wonder with a stranger, maybe that relationship idea isnt so far fetched...